despite her noisy bravado

I realize now that the last few days I have been pretty crazy. 

I feel better now.

Little Wolf spent the night last night.

I think I might try to crack something open with my studio mate who's a bartender, so we'll just call  her that.

I heard that she watches me when I'm not looking. People think she is openly flirting with me.

I am not really sure if this is just her being secure with our sexualities, or this is just how she is when she's comfortable and being friendly.

Hm.  She is so hott when she is staring right at me, that I sometimes have to avert my eyes. I don't know if she is as big on eye contact as I am, but she might be- cause sometimes she blushes and smiles nervously... but she doesn't geek out, and she keeps it going. I like that a lot.

Little Wolf is basically enthralled with me, so it's much less of a challenge.

Not that I am on a mission to turn the bartender queer or anything, I'm just suspicious and a little curious to see if she has it in her.

Little Wolf is younger, so although she is more mature than most her age, she is still innocent and pure. I used to feel like I was opening her eyes to everything, (she was the definition of sheltered) and it got to be pretty exhausting, or frustrating... Especially since she made it such a hard game to get her to give in to me. It took us months to have sex and I am glad it happened that way because it proved she can keep me interested.

Anyway. That's a fresh little heart, and she is in the times of her first experiences as an adult. I don't know if I want to go through all of that and be THAT person. But. It's  probably too late, and I am a scared little fuck face, and I am always ready to run.