It seems the more intense our relationship gets, the more insecure little Wolf gets. This is very stressful for me because she makes herself upset over things that don't really exist, by reading too far into my preoccupation with other things. It's hard for her to understand that I have been dicking around a lot this semester, working over nights when I do work- and taking random trips to DC, Charlotte, the beach, and recently, a week in Chicago. Finals are coming up and I have SO MUCH ART (6 oil paintings, I need to finish a 3x4 ft acrylic painting and a photography portfolio with a series of different projects), a 15 page paper (for a graduate level class I'm taking) and a poetry portfolio due by the end of the month. Not to mention things I need to do for printmaking.

I know I hardly update anymore, but it is important to say that I finally decided to drop out of the art education program here. The advising has been terrible (I was a transferring major. I originally started college as a communication major before switching to art ed. They had me listed as a studio BFA and were letting me take courses that apply to studio BFA but not art education. Not only were they letting me take them, but they were letting me re-take and grade replace some I felt needed better grades before telling me, in my fourth year there, "oh, you need another advisor! I thought you were studio!")

That was last year, and I only knew 2 art ed advisors. One of whom was a major asshole- sexist and racist, the other seemed to be a nice guy, so I chose him. He turned out to be a christian maniac and was less than helpful with me, and more condescending than anything else. I find out I have to take more classes since the others did not count (which wasted probably a year or 2 more of school) and that I have to take a teacher SAT before I can take the final senior courses of student teaching which would be very near in the future. Which sucks. Cause I was advised to take the wrong math twice, I'd have to take ANOTHER math and I really suck at the subject. The last time I took an algebra class was 9 years ago!!! I feel like the system screws students over to make them pay for more classes and more semesters.

I am going on my 6th year in college and I am so eager to just be done with it!!

I also found out if I drop the major and just stick with a Printmaking studio BFA, I can bypass the teacher SAT by already having a degree if I decide to come back and finish the last few classes I'd need for art ed and wouldn't have to take a new math.

Besides, all the art ed kids just seem to be major ass kissing brown nosed little conservative douchebags. I think I've had two friendly professors the whole time, and met only one other art ed friend who is genuinely nice and will say what's up whenever we run into each other.

Also, now I can focus on some damn printmaking for real, cause staying up writing lesson plans about color and design really sucks ass when you have so much personal art to get out.