Ask me where I'm really from, I don't remember just yet.

It's so strange to me how off and on I am about being in a relationship. I really thought I could semi settle, but now I find myself flinching and getting horrible ticks about the little habits she has and does out of nervousness because I am making her that way. I don't want to turn into an evil bastard, so maybe hopefully- I can let it pass/ snap out of it. I find myself picking her apart mentally and it's really not fair. 

I guess I am running into problems with commitment now after our little episode the other day. It really just put me off, and I really have other things to focus my energy on. 

Anyway.

School was good. I actually had 3 classes today. Missed swimming due to sleep... but I swear I was up at like 5:15, 5:30, 5:45 listening to what sounded like ridiculous circus polka bass lines coming through my upstairs roommate's party den, who can't hear me texting or calling her until I go upstairs and tell her I'm sorry but I really need to sleep. I have to be at class at 9 in the morning, etc etc. Drunk people hugging me. Someone passed out in the hallway.

I was having many rapid crazy dreams last night. I regret it now, but I figured since it was the first day I could pull the "I was having issues with class registration, and talk to my advisor" excuse. Which is true. I did talk to him and I went to 2 different offices.

I ended up also having my Physics and the Universe lecture class today. WHICH REMINDS ME...

 I am on earth for some sort of shifting purpose. I am here to be part of some sort of revolution. I have these ideas about aliens that have found their way to me (including coincidences with mormons, a bit of scientology, and paganism), and I have been listening to these alien channeling seminar recordings... Also been hearing a lot about different 2012 theories... Especially lately, ones dealing with the planetary Alignment. I've always been drawn to new age/pagan ideas (which revolve around the universe and have to some degree- have always been practicing 'control', or 'life direction' through a projection of certain energies, trying to be more psychically connected, etc.

ANYWAY. 

At dinner tonight, I mentioned I was in the physics and the universe class and someone brought up 2012 and the planets aligning.... I realized THATS MY TATTOO!. I have this tattoo of 9 descending circles in a line.  When I decided to get it, my reasons were, A. 9 lives because I am one with the cats, and B. because at the time there were 9 planets.

Hopefully when I get to be an old woman, I can tell stories about how I came from the "time of nine planets" or "the last generation before the ages of eight".

but what a crazy coincidence. Maybe I am marked this way for some sort of crazy battle/fantasy novel-book life.