Little Wolf and I are back together. Considering we were back to fucking in less than 2 days, we weren't really broken up.

Some things were realigned. We slept with someone else together and that went well. It actually brought us much closer, which is really strange considering the situation of who the other person was, which doesn't really matter considering it also helped me feel more helpless(?)/okay/semi-numb towards my feelings for them.  I am finally able to accept the reality of our relationship as of currently. I should say past, but this was another glitch in the "real"-state. Also us as individuals/the bigger picture for me/the sad truth that now is, what was- but also the fun/easy going/sexy/cute/endearing/real times I have with my current animal companion friend, little wolf. 

I haven't exactly told her yet, but I think I've come to the conclusion that I am quite lucky,okay with letting myself feel seriously for her, and that she is the universe blessing me.

In other news, I am at the beach working on visual things, trying to get a "real" job, and needing to create my own website and business cards for art purposes. I am also interested in trying to get some gallery space around the waterfronts for attracting rich people willing to spend money. (Poor people come talk to me. I also enjoy trades of all sorts. ) I really want to have public space for, or make $$$ from my art so I can get some credibility around family members who think I am wasting my time in art school.  I mean, I was wasting time in art school, but now I refuse to quit for the sake of super debt. I am going to get this degree so I can shove it in the faces of my backwoods family who refuse to educate themselves with culture or try to look outside the traditional box... etc etc WHO DONT HAVE ANY DEGREE AND ARE ASSHOLES

Anyway, here's a photo I took of my sexy love.

Class starts in the morning. Where did this Summer go?

I only have a swimming class tomorrow. I think it will be funny seeing all the sorostitutes and frat boys getting grossed out on my armpits.

I am actually excited to be back in school. My life will have more meaning. I like going to class and checking out all the people. Most of all, I'm down with learning. 

I think my classes are as follows: Experiences in art (this is the class where I make lesson plans for kids and teach them in an after-school program), Developmental Psychology, Physics and the Universe (lecture), Physics and the Universe (lab), Swimming, and Printmaking IV. 

I'm thinking it will be relatively easy being that I only have one studio class this semester. Studio classes are generally the ones i care most about. The general ed stuff seems to always be relatively easy if you just go to class and study. Which I do. So, hopefully I will be kicking ass this semester. I hope to stay focused and to try to get all A's this time. I want a scholarship for grad school more than anything at this point. 

Especially since you only need a masters to be an art professor. I'll be coming out with 2 BFA's- one in Art ed, and one in printmaking... and then I want to go to grad school for printmaking. I figured the art ed degree might help get me a job in a university over someone who didn't double major... Unless of course, their art is phenomenal, which is very possible. There are a ton of sexy talented printmakers out there.

I just don't want to go teach kids at a public school when i get my BFA's. I don't want it to stop there. I am not ready to settle down with my miss frizzle suit and my apple and desk where i hope to change someone's life... while I babysit the rest of them... Unless I have to.